Part 5 – A few subtle signs…
Improved energy levels vs exhaustion
Since beginning yoga I did see an improvement in my energy levels. However, I did spend 12 hours a week commuting to and from work and started to find that although it was Spring and the morning’s were lighter and the day’s longer, I was still very tired. I didn’t think anything of it, I just put it down to all the travelling and constant change that was going on in my life at the time.
The daily commute
At the time I was trying to find a new job back in my home city in the short-term to reduce my travel time to and from work. One of the things I have now learned is to listen to my body and to my intuition, just because something works for someone else doesn’t mean that it will work for me. We are not all built the same, meant to be the same or are even motivated by the same things in life.
For me the constant daily travelling to and from work was taking its toll, it was affecting my energy levels, I had less free time to myself out of work and it was costing me a lot of money for the luxury of travelling 12 hours a week to and from work. I had been doing this for just under two years now and I knew something had to change, it just wasn’t for me. When I think back to it maybe the extreme tiredness was an effect of my brain aneursym before it ruptured.
Meditation is the way forward
I started listening to guided meditations on my phone during my train journey to work in the mornings. This was the order of the series of events that would take place on my daily train journey. I would eat breakfast and sip coffee from my portable insulated mug. I would then proceed to do my makeup with many onlookers, lol I often received compliments on how well I multitasked having breakfast and doing my makeup all while on the train.
I would then finish off the remainder of my journey by listening to my guided meditations. I’d put my earphones in, close my eye’s and pretend I was somewhere else for around 5 -10 minutes, I was then set to take on the day.
I used the headspace app and I have now recently started using calm, give it a go and see how you get on. I like the bedtime stories, the grown up version of ‘a little story teller’ for any of you who had bedtime audio books as a child.
I just couldn’t get my head around starting the day by getting on the train in the dark, cold winter mornings with most people either looking miserable, exhausted or were already working on their laptops or fast asleep. What did make me laugh is when the train would arrive at my destination, that’s when daylight would just break and everyone’s phone alarms would sound to wake them on arrival, what a life?! If that’s what everyone classifies as a good life…you can keep it! It ain’t for me!
We all get headaches – whats the big deal?
In April 2017 I was suffering from headaches, from what I remember they were really painful at times but I didn’t feel that they were anything different to the norm. I put it down to tiredness, stress and hormones. I use to suffer from migraines badly as a teen so having a migraine from time to time isn’t something unusual for me.
However, on one occasion it was so bad that I phoned into work sick. I then went to the doctors for a routine check-up, my symptoms didn’t flag anything unusual and from what I recall the doctor felt it was hormonal and linked to the time of the month.
You will later find out that I completely forgot about the headaches and my doctors’ appointment until I was reminded a few months down the line.February 14, 2018 7:30 pm